🌀Clearing my head🌀

The days and nights seem to run into each other at this point. I'm back at work, have been for almost 2 months now. Lil man is adjusting to supplementing with formula and is still wanting to nurse at night.( quite assertively I might add, he's stubborn- wonder where he gets that from?) :)People used to warn me about how much lil ones grow in no time- something I never thought was going to be this fast until I experienced it first hand. Everyday is something new- new lil smiles, giggles, even the way he studies my face when I get home from work. Lu Ann is taking such great care of him during the day. I know that he is in great hands. When I come home they're laying around talking, Full conversation with each other like he's telling her all of his thoughts on every aspect of his short lived lil life so far- he has so much to say. Already. I never knew I could love someone so much-- it still amazes me and I know it will continue to do so. This is really the most rewarding experience of my life- I want a couple more kids- I'd have one tomorrow if I could. 

 Summer is rapidly coming and I am thinking of all the activities we can do- he loves being outside. I'm thinking of doing chicks this year- if I can keep them away and out of Jacks mouth🐥 I think it would be fun to start this for when Case is older and can enjoy them too. I'm running 2 5k this summer and doing race for the cure with Parkhill- so we will b doing a lot of running at the park soon with Jack, putting Case' stroller to good use. 

   I haven't decided if being a working mom is worth everything I miss through the day, but I have a pretty awesome job that allows a lot of leeway, we have just had a long last 2 weeks. I feel that I was blessed with working at parkhill to experience first hand how lucky I am- having a healthy, perfect baby- I first handedly saw a family deal with the worst pain anyone could imagine and shouldnt ever have to go through last week- to them I'm truly sorry- I continue to grieve and pray for their faith everyday that God knows exactly why these things happen and there will be bliss in their lives very soon. No one should have to bury their children, let alone only get a short time with them and not get

to know them at all- I'm laying here with Case and can't imagine what I would do without him. I am not that strong and the good Lord knows this- he takes such good care of me. To everyone that is feeling lost or just  having a rough week- know that life is a blessing- each day is a chance to find this blessing- use it and find the joy in ur life- everyone deserves to smile-